| My life has changed so drastically, but yet its still the same! How is that possible? So much has happened and I have changed so much....But my day to day life is as normal as it ever was. I get up take kids to school (just like last year), I go to school, go to work, go to church, its all the same, but I feel so different. It is the craziest thing. How can this be happening? I feel like a completely different person then I was last year, even last month! But still life goes on the same. Its the weirdest thing. Don't get me wrong ..Its a great thing!!
I have changed for the better. Its just so weird to think of how much I have changed in the last year. In this past month -past few weeks- my perspective on God and my relationship with him has changed. It has grown. I've been waiting my entire life to have a real "connection" with God. I've been a Christian for two years and I was raised in the church, but for some reason I always thought that I was a Christian and that's all that mattered in life. I knew that basics of the bible, I had Christian friends, I had the basic Christian beliefs, but I always knew that something was missing...I was incomplete.
I found myself in the past few weeks. I have been trying to help my friend find himself, and I ended up stumbling on myself. I have a REAL relationship with God! Not that I didn't before, but the "work" wasn't there. I haven't ever fully committed myself to God, I have now. I cant go 10 minutes with out thinking about God, and what I should be doing, I never had that before. Because of everything that has happened, I know what I can handle, and who I can turn to for help. I know my beliefs, I know who I am, and I know not to let people push me around. Not even the people closet to me. I have real faith! I Am a Christian!!!
My life is still the same in every aspect except one. The one that matters! I am so much closer to my lord and savior then I have ever been. Its an amazing thing. What is so weird about the whole situation is that I found this out through some one else's troubles. That makes me feel guilty. I know Romans 8:28, but when does it start benefiting the one with the problem? Or has it? |
